Phase 1- the preparation

Right in this moment i'm trying to study for my finals, which are coming around the corner. but my mind keeps fadding away to all these stupid things, like today i just couldn't stop watching the video logs of this guy on yutube. I spent half my day (which should be spent studying) watching that guy saying things that have nothing to do with Desenvolvimental Psichology (my next exam). but anyway... youtube will be really helpfull to my future profession- i'm a psychology major, in that way i really learn a lot watching those videos, or at least i like to think so, to take the burden of my shoulders.
I realized half through my "well" spent day that i probably don't know so much about some of my closest friends as i do about this guy i probably will never see in my life... we make connections to these people all the time but they are really strange, i felt like i would like to know him, but on the other hand it's cool not to know because we can be much more truthfull about our ideas and opinions without the worrying of being judged.
I always try to make sure that i don't really care about what others think of me, but in essence all we do is for someone. for example i'm writing this blog for me, of course, because it's something i´ve been wanting to do for sometime now, and because nowadays, this is the new diary... and yes i've always owned one so it's just like taking the next step towards the global world, but anyway, i could just write something on my pc and not let anyone read it.
now i came to think of it... we all like to see what other people think of us... saying we don't care it's just a defense to crude comments or opinions.